A New Beginning

It has been a while since I picked up a pencil and a piece of paper, or should I say, picked up my computer and started typing. It feels as if while I was getting lost in translation, I was finding peace and tranquility; now that I am back home, I am lost in the routine. I was brought back to this filthy place where it seems things are happening for us and not by us. It is almost as if we where reprogrammed the minute we stepped out of the airplane.

It is good though, back with my beautiful daughter and amazing son which I missed so badly while being away for so long. My office, my desk, my environment; those things that when I breathe, they provide me with such positive energy that a smile builds up around my face. But it's only a couple of things that really have such an effect on my daily routine while so many step on my way uninvited. It is good to have learned to admire the good and the bad, the nice and the ugly, to accept the challenges as facts and turned them around for a profit. It was good to think straight for a while, to organize myself, my thoughts, my behavior, it was all worth every millisecond.

Now life goes on and the challenge still remains. It has been about a month and a half since we got back and we have noticed very little changes in our baby, although little changes can become big changes if we do not let ourselves run out of patience. My wife has been so dedicated to this little person that it is simply admirable and I could not doubt for a second that with her persistence and determination, there is no other way but up.

I am in constant research in order to find solutions and answers; little by little, step by step. And there are solutions out there, only that not a single one will produce real results, but it is when in concert that they will shine up in brightness and color. Wait, and execute, wait, and execute some more.

For the past ten years my life has trained me to be a scientist, a man in constant look for logical answers into every problem and situation I face. It actually brought me to think and to write: if it doesn't have a scientific explanation, it's a religion. How and why did I come up with such a statement? It doesn't really matter, it is a way of looking at things specially when your professional life demands it.

So I get the chance to resolve many technical issues every day of my life because my job demands it. See, we are in a business that has been evolving since the early nineties and it's still not homogenized or standardized. All elements across a network are not close to compatible to each other, yet we make them work. It's as if you go to an international convention and for the purpose of making communications easy, it is held in the widely popular english language. However, there is the guy from Denmark with its own perception of the english language, having a conversation with the Russian who is not agreeing with the German because the French, yes, the French, has to say no to everything. So there you have them all speaking in English yet not understanding the intentions in their words to the full extent; it is an english speaking communication environment to the 67.42%. I get the chance to make things work, I twitch them, I change them, I kick them until they get to do whatever it is I want them to do. I get to repair the conception of many of my colleagues that a simple "that does not work" will do for them; not for me my friends, not for me.

The challenge presented is somehow more controversial. The chance and opportunity presented has been now to repair a human being, to give it the right we all have to live a normal life and enjoy everything this universe has to offer. The challenge is to play God and to play the doctor. Although I'm neither, I have been taught to seek and constantly seek for answers, and to try everything with every possible variable until all resources are exhausted. It is what I am, it is built in me, and I thank the universe for giving me such a challenge to prove myself that if you put your mind into something, you can really get to its achievement. Everything has a logical explanation, nothing is just "what it is". So I will dedicate my efforts and resources to see this through and only to prove myself and to show myself that in this huge and black-holed aligned universe, there is a way to succeed.

Well my friends, that time has come. The time in which I get to work and face all my challenges. But something has changed in the process, I will be heart and mind, body and soul, and not just an individual piece separated from the core. So I leave you here and hopefully see you soon.

Love you all, always and forever.

Tuto.38